Growing up I always wanted to be a mom, so after getting married I wanted to get pregnant right away and I did.
Why? What was my hurry to have children? I was living in the moment. I didn't really think about the next day or the next or that it would take 18 years to raise that baby and it would change my life forever.
Having kids is a journey!
There are struggles in that journey, there are joys, happiness, sadness. I didn't think about any of that years ago when I wanted a baby. As they got older I had dreams and hopes for my kids and I still do, but I had to realize that their dreams and hopes for their lives could not be mine. I could teach them, encourage them, pray with and for them, enjoy them, but I could not make them into who I wanted them to become. This has been hard for me to deal with when my kids have made choices that I didn't want for them. Especially now that two of them are adults.
All five of my kids are their own person. I will always be there for them, encourage them, pray with and for them, but I can not change them. They are who they are and will make their own choices......good or bad!